Christmas at this age, you have to start buying for other people and you never want anything anymore. Birthdays only make you feel worse because you're getting even older. And I don't even make the holidays last or make the most of them, because when we go back to school I just miss them more. I don't know how to think to just move on though, like people say just be happy and get over it or embrace the future, all this stuff, I don't know how to do that! It doesn't take over my life or anything, I don't dwell on the past, so much as I just don't want it to be the past!
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